hope will never be reality......

no matter how much we may desire it to be so. Today I wanted nothing more then to go back in time and do everything differently but would any of it had made a difference? After a few questions and a discussion I think not so for this I am saddened for there is something there that I for one cannot extinguish. Some of the best stories aren't always the prettiest or straight forward and thus is life......it's at this moment that I understand how bad it hurts to lose something you never really had.